me now on 7/7/10

for anyone who can see this which is none cuz i got no follower...its gone...i cudnt recover i and also my friends went down so hard so fast that now its too hard to get back up.....what a shame...the biggest bunch of jesus lovers, gone, just like that, we were the life of the church and the ministry and now nothing.....now its sooo gone and any sign of action we try not to make it happen...it was the glory days but now after the golden age has done its time we come out unvictorius and we fall in the dark side of the spiritual realm......but in the physical world we reign supreme at least we think so and we do what we gotta do to do it......defying laws unseen and behind......the time has past and im sure will come plenty more times but its just the same ole cycle and when we pass we hope that it will end on the cycle where re-birth is at our side and we die in the days of glory and not in the days of the gloom......so much has changed....so much has been done......and people will say i have changed and its true but now they dont know what has happened and they will see that i am not once the man i was once before....no more peace and love...more like go, get out of the way, i dont need you, i have my own better friends, people are shady, hateful, fake and transparent....and when they cry to me to take them back or to hang with them i will know that i am just a burden a sort of responsibility that they have to ask me to hang with them....but my loyalty is too strong, it always is and that my weakness, i will do anything for u guys and yet i was disowned and now when i leave u for a while u will realize it....u will need what i have to offer u and i will look down on u and say no...but my loyalty will unregrettably say yes and i will have to come back but it will only be the same, a few months of happiness then nothing and again and again and again...i hate it, i despise it, i loathe it....nothing of u is me but i am myself........so as cynical as it all sounds if u see me u will be surprised at what u see and what ull receive......so till then......reminisce and influence